Ugly Crying in the Shower

""""Losing the love of your life is an experience for which you can never truly prepare. They were your first true love, your champion, defender, and safe haven. Regardless of the diagnosis or the duration of your grief prior to their departure, the truth remains that you are never ready to let go of a part of yourself. Amidst the grieving process, clichés about healing, life moving forward, staying strong for others, or the notion that God had a greater need for them can be heard echoing loudly. These familiar lines find their dwelling on the faces of those around you, silently passing judgment on your grief journey while you attempt to validate the truth within those overused sayings. Yet, what no one truly discloses is the raw reality of dwelling in grief long after others have finished mourning. No one can accurately express how a piece of your being unquestionably perishes alongside your beloved, and how you experience death repeatedly with each milestone they miss. Your sense of self is shattered. While people often offer words of solace about death in the immediate aftermath, they rarely shed light on the harrowing journey of surviving the ongoing nightmare that follows a loss. This book delves into the depths of my profound grief, capturing the thoughts and nightmares that have haunted me since the loss of my mom almost a year ago. My genuine hope is that the words within these pages, intertwined with the vulnerability I expose, can offer comfort and support to you in some way.""""