A Notebook of Love My Story on Mental Health

I am Pueblo and Yaqui Indian and a veteran from NM. I have Bipolar and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and face a tough question from my wife, who has Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), PTSD and other related mental conditions. At the time my wife was suffering from a severe identity crisis and wants a divorce and to runaway. She asks me, is she is she worthy of love? She knows very little of my mental health and history of abuse, leading me into a mental whirlwind of countless thoughts and emotions.
The book was originally a letter written in 23 hours during a two week bipolar manic. How do you bring a loved one back from mental delusion caused by a drastic change in medicine that treat her mental health?
I reflect on how we men are raised to "Be a man" and figure things out. We are told at a young age "Figure it out, your gonna be a man soon" and other phrases as boys. What happens when we dont have it figured out? "Being a man" means our mental health is a low priority and it reflects in all our relationships.
Read how my mind turmoils and tells the story of my past to save our marriage. Much like the notebook, I race to tell my story and ours to bring her back from delusion from the borderline.