Ruby Alleyways Crushes: Not another "To all the boys..." Story

Rubys life was in a series of crushes, She felt that she could never fall in love, having crushes was habitual to her, From her fifth grade crush to when she was actually in love, everything was fine. But then feelings were crushed, and she found herself not being able to like someone again. She fell in love, she didnt even get into a relationship and she was broken. So, she vented her emotions by writing about everything. From her fifth grade crush till her heartbreak. She emptied her heart, but she couldnt write more. She never showed it to anyone. Then she forgot about it and moved on. What would happen if he saw all what she wrote? Worse, what if someone else saw? Someone she cannot afford to lose.